Dealing With The Days

It's hard to keep your life together weeks before you graduate. Teachers are harassing you for last minute assignments and your mother is constantly asking if you've gotten your prom dress altered yet. People ask on a daily basis what your plans are for the rest of your life and all you can manage to do is shrug and give a few vague sentences that somehow earn a sympathetic smile and pat on the back. Friendships slowly fade and people you once shared your deepest secrets with become the people you pass by in the hallways without a simple glance.

People are constantly telling you to start acting like an adult but they also tell you to cherish the last few months of being a child. Parents either care too much are not at all, sister's put thoughts of missing out on marriage and children in your brain while others basically beg you to never even think about starting a family. 

You're trying to figure out what's going to happen in the next couple years but you're also freaking out about the next couple days and how on earth you can fit all you have to do in such a short amount of time. 

High school stops being fun and starts being your worst nightmare. You start to lose sleep and stay up late trying to force yourself to rest but all you can think of is everything and nothing all at once.
Sometimes you can't handle it, sometimes it's too much and you have to cry into your mom's shoulder because you're too scared to deal with the world around you. It's okay, it's okay to be afraid and it's okay to not know what's going to happen. No one knows whats going to happen in the future, everyone is afraid.You can breakdown sometimes but you have to be able to pick yourself back up afterwards, wash away your tears and realize this is temporary. The stress, the sadness of leaving, it's all just temporary. No pain will last forever. This is just the end of a really good book, but don't worry because you'll find an even better book. And if you can't find a new book then you can write your own and you can be the one to chose if it will have a happy or sad ending.