Time

When I was younger, time went by so slowly. Waiting for Christmas seemed like an eternity and nothing ever seemed to come quickly. However, now the only time that feels slow is the ten minutes left before I get off work. I find the older I get the faster my life starts to go. It feels like it was five minutes ago that I was ten and playing with barbies. Now I'm four months away from graduating and dealing with university applications. Even my school days seem to fly by without warning. I hardly ever catch myself staring at the countdown like I did so many times before. Part of me is beyond excited to graduate and enter the "adult world" but that's just a very small part.
The majority of me just want's everything to slow down. The idea of having to deal with budgeting, bills and grocery shopping freaks me out. I'm not too sure what T4's are, job interviews scare me and I can't decide whether to buy skim milk or 1%. Basically, I might die in the adult world.
I've never given much thought to my life after high school because I've always been scared of what will come next. But now that I have a very faint idea of what I'd like to do I'm realizing there is so many things I need to get done and I'm scared I won't have enough time. Right now I don't even have time to watch Netflix, and that use to be a very big part of my life.
It's great to be busy, I really love having things to do or people to hangout with constantly but I also really like to be by myself with only my thoughts...Or my cat. These days I never get to hangout with my cat.
The fact that my life is starting to speed up terrifies me. I want to slam my foot on the break so badly but somehow is just keeps getting faster and faster.